June 22, 2013

Well, I have gone from my blog for so long I had a hard time
finding it. Things have changed here in Blog world. I hope I
can learn the changes and get back into posting once again.

I still struggle with my Mom pasting. Things have been bad
lately.  Brent my younger brother and his family are moving in
with my Dad. Which is a good thing. But, it has been hard on
me going through all my Mom's stuff...as in her collection of
dolls, stuffed bears and other items. I feel sad...like we are
erasing her from our home and lives. I know things do not matter.
I know she is thinking...my goodness why did I spend so much money on that stuff. Now look at the mess Kimmie has to clean up.
And get rid of it all. Not all of it Mom...just most of it. You
knew I didn't have any room at my place for it. I do love you Mom
for leaving all your treasures to me. It is just a hard step to take.

My Dad is doing ok. He keeps asking me when is my Mother going
to come get him.  Did she forget me?  He is going to be 89 on
Sept 24. He is in pain, tired and bored in life. He is at home
all the time. He has a hard time getting out of the house. He love his mini lap top. He enjoys looking up people and music on
google and music on youtube. He has always had a great love for
music.

A friend told me...she has losted both her parents years ago. It never get easier...you just get use to them not being around as
much.She is right. Who ever wrote TIME HEALS ALL PAIN, was not in touch with real feelings.  The pain is always there. You do find a different kind of
joy now in life. Happiness feels different..love is different.
Everyday is different. You learn to feel and live in a different world because they are now gone. It is true..a part is missing from your heart and it does feel empty. 
But, being sad hurts everyone...you, friend,family your pets and the one love you miss...more then anyone ...Our Father in Heaven.
He wants us to be happy. He wants us to remember his plan for us 
to be together again..to be a Family forever. 
Life my Mom...I will always be your Mother..and you will always be my daughter..that will never change.